The fear of the unknown

I’m finding myself watching a lot of reruns lately.

Movies like When Harry Met Sally or Sleepless in Seattle.

I’ve re-watched The Newsroom episodes an embarrassing amount of times to admit.

I like that I know how the story ends.  I’m scared for The Newsroom, Season 3, because I’m afraid it won’t end up the way I want it to….with the two main characters living happily ever after.

I hate surprises.

I’ve always been a “news junkie” because I simply want to know things first.

I’m a fixer.  I see a problem, I have solutions.  Which is why I’m having such a hard time finding the right words to deal with this cancer “situation” that my dear friends are dealing with.  I suppose all you can do is live your life to the best of your abilities and be thankful for everything around you.  It just doesn’t seem to make lots of sense and my brain can’t deal.

Which brings me to today.  It’s been an odd day.

I couldn’t stay up late to watch the Oscar’s because I had to be up early to hit the gym.  My Monday morning spin class is what sets the tone for my week.  I was half-asleep this morning and not clearly thinking.  I even left my fitbit at home.  #GymFail

As class begins the teacher asks the room if they watched the Oscars.  Everyone kind of says yes….and then she asked…well…what did you think?  And this one woman says, “I didn’t like it….it was all about the gays…”  And I just stopped.  The room was full of people and I just became so disgusted.  She was in her early 50s maybe? Is this really what the world has come to?  She doesn’t know me.  What if I was gay? I sat through class and didn’t say a word.  And frankly, didn’t enjoy it at all.  (Also teacher, Bruce Springsteen’s “Secret Garden” is not a great spin class song!)

Perhaps I should have said something.  Perhaps I should have walked out sooner.  Perhaps I should just quit that gym.  It really has been bothering me all day.  In this situation, what do you do?

So fast forward to this afternoon when I post something over on my friends blog.  In just one hour, we’ve helped to collect thousands of dollars, and that number keeps climbing.  It’s so great to see people help.  It’s overwhelming to see the outpouring of support for this little family that can really use some good news for a change.

So just when I think humanity sucks, you guys turn it around.



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